May 23, 2009

Love & Faith

"Love is never wanting to lose faith, never wanting to give up, and never truly moving on. Love is knowing and praying in the deepest part of what's left of your heart that they feel the same."
I've found someone amazing and I love him. I'm scared to trust and to truly love again. I'm scared of getting my heart broken and facing the pain of putting it back together again. But if I'm too afraid to try, if I'm too scared to trust, and if I'm too closed off to open my heart I will be alone forever and that is not what I want.


This new found love and the happiness that is coming with it is changing my plans. It looks like I'll be staying in the north-east part of the country though my location will still be changing. Not sure exactly where yet...that all depends on the jobs that come my way in the next couple weeks. I will let you know when I do!


I've found someone amazing and I love him....and by some miracle, he loves me back. I believe it, I trust it and I'm moving with faith towards it. I am happy :)


May 14, 2009

UPDATE!

Finally an update...its been awhile. It seems like my life is going at a greatly accelerated pace these days. So much is happening and so much is about to change, I feel like I can't keep up with it all.

Last week I finished my Physics class which completed my credits for my AS degree in general studies. It has been a long time coming so I'm very relieved to have that over (now I just need to fill out the forms to get the degree in hand! I'm such a procrastinator! LOL)

My job has been keeping me busy and I'm almost into my final month with this family and CT/NY. Its weird because on one hand I'm so excited to move on to something new but I'm also very sad to say goodbye. I'm also nervous because I'm not sure where I'm going next.
This weekend though I'm going to be flying out to California to interview with a new family. I hope it all works out because I think it could be a really great job. Wish me luck! Its going to be exhausting doing that long flight twice in one weekend plus working!


A few weeks ago my friend Jason came out to visit. We had a great time in NYC...you can see some of our pictures in the slideshow above ;)


My updated blog decor reflects my current love of American Idol. I really haven't gotten into Idol since the very first season but this year I was home in Utah visiting during the first few episodes and so I got sucked into by my family all watching it. I immediately took a liking to Adam Lambert who's voice I felt was incredible and who reminds me of Pete from Fall Out Boy haha




Of course, last night Adam made it into the final round! I'm also excited because I really love Kris Allen too. I'm hoping Adam wins but if Kris wins I won't be too disappointed. I think at this point both have a good career on its way and I'm excited to get the first albums for both of them sometime in the hopefully near future! I miss Allison too...I hope she puts out an album! :)


XOXOX

Amanda